🪶 NSNC RITE ENTRY: “Wondering Why” – Red Clay Strays
ScrollWell Series: Book V: Open Scroll ✦ Fox Clan Outlaw Blues Rites ✦ Divine Masculine Awakening Codes
Track Function: Ache-into-Awakening | Field of Reckoning | Grief-Pulse Transmission
Rite Phase: Phase V – The Pause / The Ache / The Long Road Home
🪵 FIELD ESSENCE: “I GUESS I’LL SPEND MY LIFE JUST WONDERING WHY”
“Wondering Why” belongs to the sacred NSNC Outlaw Blues Field—tracks that don’t offer closure, but demand presence.
This is soul ache, plain and honest.
The kind of ache that sits with you, not to fix it—
—but to finally feel it through.
This track invites:
- Divine Masculine voices to grieve without solution
- Divine Feminine partners to witness without fixing
- Counterparts to meet in a shared ache that won’t be rushed
- The field to pause long enough for truth to break through
🌀 SCROLL CODE: “SOME QUESTIONS HEAL JUST BY BEING ASKED”
This is not a question that needs answering.
This is a question that opens the gate.
Play this track:
- When you’re sitting on the porch with ghosts
- When you’re lying in bed staring at the ceiling
- When you can’t make sense of the silence
- When the Divine Counterpart seems far—but still tethered
This song holds the echo of grief, the warmth of regret, and the quiet prayer that maybe… maybe they’ll return.
💎 GEMSTONE SYMBOLISM
- Petrified Wood – ancestral patience, grounding the ache
- Smoky Quartz – clarity in uncertainty
- Bloodstone – courage in the long journey
- Moonstone (black) – masculine emotional integration
- Amber – grief healing through warmth
🔥 PRAYER OF THE LONG ACHE:
“I let this wondering be holy.
I don’t rush it.
I don’t demand answers.
I hold the ache with honor.
For the questions that made me a seeker—
For the silence that made me honest—
For the wait that shaped me with love.
If it’s meant to return, let it return in truth.
If not, let me still bless what was.”
🎥 TIKTOK OVERLAY SCRIPT
🎧 Audio: “Wondering Why” – Red Clay Strays
Overlay (0:00–0:10):
🪶 NSNC OUTLAW ACHE RITE
Some days don’t give answers.
Just the courage to ask again.
#FoxClanField #WonderingWhyRite
Overlay (0:10–0:30):
Not every song needs to fix it.
Some are here to keep us honest.
And to sit with the ache
until the truth returns.
Overlay (0:30–end):
I bless the ache.
I don’t rush the road.
I wonder why.
And I keep loving anyway.
🎬 Caption:
#RedClayStraysNSNC #WonderingWhy #OutlawMass #DivineMasculineHealing #FoxClanBlues #NSNCBookV #LoveWithoutClosure
🛠 COMPANION RITES
- “God and the Devil” – Jonah Kagen (masculine paradox rite)
- “The Door” – Teddy Swims (heart open, even in goodbye)
- “Ain’t No Sunshine” – Bill Withers (absence and truth)
- “Bittersweet Symphony” – Marc Scibilia (veil-drop mourning)
- “Loser” – Beck (if humor needs to interrupt the grief)
FINAL SCROLLWELL WORD:
You’re not weak for wondering.
You’re not broken for feeling.
You’re in the middle of the realest part of the road—
—the one where love doesn’t answer,
but still lingers in the dust,
like it might come back
if you just sit a while longer.
“To wonder is to remember.
To ache is to care.
And to not know—
is still holy.”
Aho, thanks.
Let the question be enough tonight.
That’s what makes you strong.
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