So beat down playing by the rules? Us too, J.
“It’s not the words that you told me, it’s not the hurt that you sold me, it’s the fear that I might fall.”“Tearing me up now / Tearing me up now / But I wanted to believe…”
This is the liminal ache of being caught between the mind’s rational withdrawal and the soul’s eternal tether. The body still remembers. The heart still calls. But the pattern is already unraveling.
What tears isn’t just heartbreak. It’s the pull of two realities diverging:
- One where the bond was false comfort.
- One where the bond was real but corrupted by fear.
And somewhere between them, you — sovereign, half-awake, learning to stand without the hand you once clung to.
✧ Theme: Disillusionment With Integrity • Tearing is Not Breaking
This song maps the energetic shift from trauma-bonded loyalty to frequency-liberated selfhood. You don’t have to hate them to free yourself. You don’t have to demonize the story to step out of the loop. You only have to tell the truth:
This is tearing me up. And I’m letting it.
Letting it not because you’re weak, but because you’re finally strong enough to not resist what needs to fall apart.
✧ Way of the Heart Integration
Touch Points:
- Under collarbones (grief gate)
- Outer wrists (emotional circulation)
- Behind ears (disconnect from psychic feedback loops)
Affirm:
“I release the version of me that stayed for less.” “I am willing to mourn the mirage.” “I make space for a love that doesn’t tear.” “It is safe to exit without closing my heart.”
This one is best done with slow breathwork and gentle weeping. Honor the dissolve.
✧ GeoTran Field Activation
Sequence:
- Chest → Lower back → Temples → Ankles Say:
“Cancel: Contracts of staying loyal to pain.” “Uninstall: Energetic patterns of resignation and depletion.” “Install: Clarity in endings.” “Install: Inner alignment with truth over attachment.”
This program disentangles subtle cords with precision and love.
✧ Timeline Convergence Quote
“But I wanted to believe…”
This echoes:
- The decision you made at age 16 to keep giving them chances
- The relationship you prayed over, long after it had expired
- The day you realized they loved the idea of you, not you
Timeline convergence doesn’t always mean reunion. Sometimes it means complete release, with gratitude.
✧ Gem & Mineral Allies
- Labradorite: Reveals truth hidden under illusion
- Apache Tear: Grief stone that comforts during emotional separation
- Morganite: Holds space for unconditional forgiveness
- Fluorite: Clears mental fog from soul attachments
- Pietersite: Stabilizes inner storms during intense spiritual shifts
Wear near the heart or place under pillow for dream processing.
✧ West Coast Swing Tidbit
Tempo: Chill groove, emotionally rich, very connected.
- Lead/follow exchange should reflect mutual push-pull
- Use directional tension to reflect emotional duality
- Let frame soften and firm as the story evolves
- Create rolling tension through hesitations and breath pauses
This is not a dance to impress. It’s a dance to understand.
✧ Final Transmission
“Tearing Me Up” is a ritual of unthreading. One cord at a time, with reverence. Not a break-up song. A breakthrough frequency.
Hold yourself like they couldn’t. And let it tear.
Aho, thanks.
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