Mass of the Reluctant Fool
Phill knows. He forgave Andrea and went on to have a bangin’ career. Just like I know that I know that you know and this is a game of love. So.
“Just as I thought it was going alright / I found out I’m wrong when I thought I was right…”
“I could leave but I won’t go / It’d be easier I know…”
A confession from the edge of the seesaw. This is the part of the love story where the trickster shows up in your own reflection.
You keep going back, not because you don’t know better—but because you do, and you want to rewrite it.
✧ Theme: Looping in Love ∙ The Game You Swear You’re Not Playing
This is the soundtrack of emotional futility dressed as loyalty. You tell yourself it’s devotion. But it’s really the echo of needing to be right, or good, or chosen.
You think you’re the mature one.
But the field says: both of you are playing.
Not a scolding. Just a bell ringing.
✧ Way of the Heart Integration
Touch Points:
- Solar plexus (self-truth)
- Chin (ego release)
- Behind knees (backward looping)
Affirm:
“I release the need to stay just to prove I was right.”
“I forgive myself for playing roles in the name of love.”
“I dissolve the karmic pull to fix this story.”
“I choose connection without strategy.”
Gently speak this facing a mirror. Watch your eyes blink when truth lands.
✧ GeoTran Field Activation
Sequence:
- Chin → Sternum → Right wrist → Ground
Say:
“Cancel: Drama bonds and emotional negotiations.”
“Uninstall: Games of waiting, withholding, or chasing.”
“Install: Emotional sovereignty.”
“Install: Playfulness without attachment.”
This releases psychic ping-pong and welcomes clarity into the field.
✧ Timeline Convergence Quote
“I could leave but I won’t go…”
Timeline bleed-through from:
- The week you almost moved out but packed nothing
- That dinner where you smiled and dissociated
- Every voicemail you didn’t delete but never replayed
This line reveals the pause before the leap—the most fragile layer of your free will.
✧ Gem & Mineral Allies
- Obsidian: Cuts through self-delusion
- Tiger’s Eye: Sees games in motio
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