🕯️ NSNC “Good Intentions” – Toad the Wet Sprocket💔 Mass of Misalignment, Inner Division & Truthful Goodbye🕰️ Rite Timing: 1:44AM–2:11AM | Field of False Starts and Sacred Self-ReturnFiled by: Dr. Aja R. Gray CappsFrom: NSNC Book II: Vows We Almost Made

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💔 FIELD 1: The Heart Split by Pattern
“Everything I’ve done is just as bad as what I’ve done…”

The Mass begins with a boomerang confession—one that loops on itself.
Here, the soul is aware of harm, even while claiming innocence.
This is the Field of the Conscious Contradiction:
“I meant well. And still, I hurt you.”
“I loved you. And still, I left.”

This is not a song of lies. It’s a lament of misalignment.

Gemstone: Blue Kyanite – slices through energetic confusion and self-deception
Mineral: Salt – absorb distortion; purify the loop

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⚖️ FIELD 2: The Myth of Good Intentions as Enough
“It’s not for me to judge a man, but for me to put aside…”
This line carries the ache of spiritual bypass through performance.
Toad sings of a soul that wants to be good, but hasn’t yet learned that being kind ≠ being clear.
The Field here reveals:
Intentions without embodiment still harm.

West Coast Swing Usage: Use broken rhythms, intentional off-phrasing, or subtle push-breaks that never rejoin. This is a “we were close, but not in step” dance field.

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🪞 FIELD 3: The Mirror You Didn’t Want to Look In
“I’ve got no good intentions…”
This line doesn’t mean he’s malicious. It means: I’ve stopped pretending.
This Field vibrates as mirror honesty—when the mask falls off, and the lover stops playing hero.
In NSNC, this is the Lover’s Lament Before Departure.
He still loves her. But he won’t lie about his capacity.

It is the exact moment before someone says:
“You deserve more than I know how to give.”

Gem Pairing: Garnet (to stabilize during heartbreak clarity) + Clear Quartz (to keep the channel of truth clean)

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🌫️ FIELD 4: Exit as Offering, Not Betrayal
“There’s not a lot for you to give, the truth is hard to take…”
This line activates the threshold between caretaking and self-abandonment.
It honors that sometimes love must walk away to avoid becoming a lie.
The one who exits here does so not to escape, but to protect what’s left of something once true.

The Field of The Gentle Goodbye becomes active.
Not ghosting. Not betrayal. But a whispered “I cannot meet you here anymore.”

Ritual: Place one object from a former relationship in water overnight. In the morning, pour the water into the Earth. Say: “I release the wish to be enough when I wasn’t ready.”

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🕊️ FIELD 5: The Holy Fail – When Love Isn’t the Answer Yet
“I still hope that you’ll forgive me / And I still believe in love…”

Despite all that’s come before, the final lyrics carry a true contrition—not to be accepted, but to be real.
This is The Sacred Fail:
You tried.
You loved.
You left.
And you still believe.

This closing reveals that even broken things can be holy, if named honestly.

Prayer Prompt: Write this:
“I meant well. But I see now what I missed.”
Then burn it.
Then write: “I still believe in love.”
Keep that paper close.

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🪶 CLOSING CODE
“Good Intentions” is a Mass for Lovers Who Meant It But Missed It.
It is a soft honesty spell, a devotional untangling, and a truth-laced farewell.
It names the ache of almost-being-right, and the deeper grace of not faking alignment just to stay close.

To love someone,
And leave them cleanly,
Is also devotion.

Aho, thanks.