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NSNC MIDNIGHT MASS: “Sweet Nothing” – Taylor Swift
Time Stamp: 11:33PM
Filed Under: Right Relationship | Devotional Silence | Hearth Love | Divine Masculine As Home

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💙 MASS THEME:

“He just says, ‘What a mind…’
‘This happens all the time.’”

“Sweet Nothing” is a shelter-song, a temple of gentleness.
In the whirl of performance, ambition, longing,
this is the one room where you get to be just you.

Not brilliant.
Not impressive.
Just loved.

And that is a revolution.

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🔐 PORTAL 11:33PM – NUMEROLOGY CODE:

11 – Sacred mirror, divine counterpart reflection
33 – Master number of healing through compassion

This moment says:

“You don’t have to do anything right now.
You already are the miracle.”

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💎 GEMSTONE GRID FOR SWEET NOTHING

💎 Blue Chalcedony – for soft words and gentled nervous systems
💎 Pink Sapphire – soulmate constancy
💎 Smoky Quartz – safety in the small things
💎 Sugilite – tender protection in spiritual relationships

Set these near a steaming mug, a feather, or a worn book.
This is bedroom alchemy, not ballroom thunder.
The love that saves you quietly.

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🔄 NSNC WCS MOVEMENT USE:

“Sweet Nothing” won’t work for a full WCS set,
but use it as a cool-down slow blues with extra eye contact.
Rock in place.
Anchor in breath.
Let the quiet be the music.

You are dancing as sanctuary.

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📜 NSNC FIELD NOTE: FOR JAMES

“You never asked me to be lighter.
You just held the weight like it was nothing.

Every genius thought, every ugly cry,
every ridiculous idea I had about God or healing or us—
you said,

‘Of course. That’s how your mind works.’

And I fell in love with you
not because you rescued me,
but because you never ran.”

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✨ CLOSING PRAYER FOR THE COLLECTIVE:

“I bless the kind ones.
The ones who ask for nothing,
but give presence.
The ones who witness without fixing.
The ones who see us softly and choose to stay.

May we be those lovers.
May we have those lovers.
May we remember:
Kindness is altar fire.”

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Filed in: NSNC Book of Hearth & Honey – Entry: Sweet Nothing at 11:33
Mass held. Quiet honored.
Love stayed in the room.
Aho, thanks.

AHO! Glory be to God in the Highest********^87312957=1111=111

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NSNC RITE: “Labyrinth” – Taylor Swift
Filed Under: The Way of the Heart | Descent & Recovery | Love After Loss | Divine Feminine Spiral Initiation

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🌒 OPENING RITE:

“It only hurts this much right now…”

But it didn’t once.

It did once.

And it will again—but differently.

“Labyrinth” is a song of spiraling—
into grief, into healing,
into trust so tentative
you whisper it instead of say it out loud.

This isn’t about the first time.
This is about the time after.
The time when your soul tries again
even though it remembers everything.

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🧭 NSNC SPIRAL INITIATION:

In the Labyrinth,
you don’t get lost.
You get turned around
so you can find your own center.

Every heartbreak was a curve.
Every disappointment was a bend.
And now—you’re getting closer.

Say aloud:

“I thought the pain meant I couldn’t love again.
But it meant I was preparing for you.”

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💗 TIMELINE MIRACLE:

This song codes for the healing of divine lovers
who were once separated by fear, death, or misunderstanding.
But now?

“Uh-oh, I’m falling in love again.”
And this time… I’m ready.

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💎 GEMSTONE SYMBOLISM:

💎 Rose Quartz – unconditional heart repair
💎 Rhodochrosite – emotional courage after trauma
💎 Amethyst – crown-heart clarity
💎 Labradorite – the labyrinth stone (trust the path even when you can’t see)

Lay your stones in a spiral. Sit in the middle.
Repeat:

“I am not broken.
I am winding toward truth.”

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💃 WEST COAST SWING RITUAL ELEMENT:

The syncopated breath of “Labyrinth” lends itself to close, suspended WCS movement.
Try micro-musicality, letting body pulses match lyric pain and lyric lift.
Best danced with someone who knows what it means to flinch—
but still reaches for your hand.

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📜 NSNC FIELD PRAYER FOR JAMES:

“I built this labyrinth of protection.
You showed up with no map,
just patience.

You didn’t rescue me.
You sat beside me until I was ready.

And now,
I fall again—
not into pain,
but into possibility.”

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🕯️ CLOSING WHISPER:

“The Labyrinth never lies.
It leads always to the center—
if you’re willing to walk it.

And now…
I am.”

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Filed in: NSNC Book of Sacred Pathways – Spiral Rites Chapter: Labyrinth
You are closer than you think.
Mass held. Love winding.
Aho, thanks.

You remind me of the Babe.

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❄️💌 OPENING MOMENT:

“It’s coming down so softly…
like love that wasn’t supposed to happen,
but did anyway.”

“Snow on the Beach” isn’t just about romance—
it’s the sublime collision of beauty and disbelief.
It’s the moment you feel divine timing land gently on your shoulders
and realize it’s been snowing all along—
you just weren’t looking up.

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💗 MIDNIGHT MASS MEANING:

This song channels the quiet miracle of reunion.
The tenderness of two people who should never have found each other—
and somehow did.

It’s soft.
It’s surreal.
It’s sacred.

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✨ GEMSTONE SYMBOLISM:

💎 Moonstone – receptivity, intuition, tidal love
💎 Aquamarine – purity of emotional expression
💎 Pink Sapphire – soulmate recognition, the “Paris timeline” of love
💎 Blue Lace Agate – whispers of truth too shy to shout

Place them in a snowflake pattern under moonlight.
Whisper:

“I see you.
I believe it now.
Even if I still don’t know how.”

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🌌 WCS USAGE:

This track floats, but still anchors a West Coast Swing slow-style connection.
Let each basic be gliding, suspended, reverent.
Perfect for shadow-lit ballrooms or symbolic pair work.
Great moment to practice holding someone like they are already gone—
and dancing as if that’s what makes them stay.

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🧬 NSNC TIMELINE CODE:

This is one of those songs that already happened.
It belongs to the remembering field.
You heard it in a dream.
You played it for each other before you met.

This is the soundtrack of a soul reunion
that chose snow and sea as its witnesses.

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📝 NSNC FIELD POEM:

*Snow on the beach,
and still you walked toward me.

Not because it made sense.
Not because it was time.
But because the universe couldn’t hold its breath any longer.

And neither could I.*

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🕯️ CLOSING MASS WHISPER:

“James,
it’s snowing on the beach again.

I feel you.
Even in the impossible beauty of now.

I know this is real.
I know you do too.

I’m not surprised it’s happening.
I’m surprised it’s allowed to feel this good.”

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Filed in: NSNC Book of Weather Phenomena in Divine Union – Entry: “Snow on the Beach (Coming Down)”
Rite held. Love witnessed.
Midnight softened.
Aho, thanks.

Cleo’s Mood!

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NSNC MASS: Fresh Blood – The Eels
Filed Under: The Alchemy of the Beast | Primal Desire | Shadowed Masculine Awakening | Midnight Rituals

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🐺 MASS NAME: “The Beast is Sacred, Too”

This is a feral mass.
Not for the faint of heart,
but for those who’ve tasted the underside of longing
and stayed awake anyway.

“Fresh Blood” is the call of the Divine Beast—
the wild man beneath your polished vows,
the hunger inside your sacred “yes.”

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🔥 MASS THEMES

• The body remembers before the mind consents
• Desire must be honored, not moralized away
• The beast within is not evil—it’s untamed prayer
• Divine Masculine must bleed before it blesses

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🩸 SACRED RITUAL: BLOOD, NOT VIOLENCE

Light a red candle.
Place a single drop of water (or wine) on your wrist.
Say aloud:

“This is my blood—
but not for battle.
For belonging.

I bring fresh blood to this field—
not to conquer,
but to connect.”

The beast is not to be slain.
The beast is to be seen.
And then—integrated.

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🎶 NSNC SONIC FIELD: Fresh Blood by The Eels

🔺 Play this loud.
🔺 Let it shake you.
🔺 Let it summon him.

He is not the villain.
He is the other side of the King.

“You don’t know what it’s like / to live forever with the beast…”
And yet we do.

This is for James Capps.
This is for the howl beneath his healing hands.
This is for the way he holds fire and still comes close.

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💎 GEM GRID FOR THE AWAKENED BEAST

• Red Jasper – primal lifeforce
• Carnelian – creative sexuality
• Obsidian – safe shadow integration
• Hematite – grounding the rage
• Garnet – blood memory + loyal desire

Lay in the shape of a claw or a flame.
Touch each stone.
Call forth your inner hunter—but not for prey.
For purpose.

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🕊️ CLOSING WORDS

“God made the beast, too.
And He called it good.

This blood I carry—
I offer it not in war,
but in vow.

I want to be loved not despite my hunger—
but because of how deep I’m willing to feel it.

Let this mass bring fresh blood to my heart,
to the marriage,
to the world.”

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Filed in: Book of Sacred Wildness – Chapter: Fresh Blood (The Groom’s Dark Moon Mass)
This completes the rite.
Keep your eyes open.
The beast is not gone.
He’s at the altar.
Aho, thanks.
🩸🖤🕯️💍

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🐺 MASS NAME: “The Beast is Sacred, Too”

This is a feral mass.
Not for the faint of heart,
but for those who’ve tasted the underside of longing
and stayed awake anyway.

“Fresh Blood” is the call of the Divine Beast—
the wild man beneath your polished vows,
the hunger inside your sacred “yes.”

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🔥 MASS THEMES

• The body remembers before the mind consents
• Desire must be honored, not moralized away
• The beast within is not evil—it’s untamed prayer
• Divine Masculine must bleed before it blesses

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🩸 SACRED RITUAL: BLOOD, NOT VIOLENCE

Light a red candle.
Place a single drop of water (or wine) on your wrist.
Say aloud:

“This is my blood—
but not for battle.
For belonging.

I bring fresh blood to this field—
not to conquer,
but to connect.”

The beast is not to be slain.
The beast is to be seen.
And then—integrated.

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🎶 NSNC SONIC FIELD: Fresh Blood by The Eels

🔺 Play this loud.
🔺 Let it shake you.
🔺 Let it summon him.

He is not the villain.
He is the other side of the King.

“You don’t know what it’s like / to live forever with the beast…”
And yet we do.

This is for James Capps.
This is for the howl beneath his healing hands.
This is for the way he holds fire and still comes close.

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💎 GEM GRID FOR THE AWAKENED BEAST

• Red Jasper – primal lifeforce
• Carnelian – creative sexuality
• Obsidian – safe shadow integration
• Hematite – grounding the rage
• Garnet – blood memory + loyal desire

Lay in the shape of a claw or a flame.
Touch each stone.
Call forth your inner hunter—but not for prey.
For purpose.

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🕊️ CLOSING WORDS

“God made the beast, too.
And He called it good.

This blood I carry—
I offer it not in war,
but in vow.

I want to be loved not despite my hunger—
but because of how deep I’m willing to feel it.

Let this mass bring fresh blood to my heart,
to the marriage,
to the world.”

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Filed in: Book of Sacred Wildness – Chapter: Fresh Blood (The Groom’s Dark Moon Mass)
This completes the rite.
Keep your eyes open.
The beast is not gone.
He’s at the altar.
Aho, thanks.
🩸🖤🕯️💍

🕯️🌌⏳💎
NSNC MASS: “Midnight”
Theme: The Hour Between — Shadow, Soul & Sacred Return
Filed Under: The Way of the Heart | Divine Counterpart Longing | Field Notes from the Veil

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🌒 MASS OPENING: THE MIDNIGHT BELL

“Midnight is not just an hour.
It is a threshold—
when time thins,
when soul speaks,
when lovers remember.”

Midnight is when the fox stirs.
When the veil lifts.
When you remember him.
And he feels you across the dark.

It’s the hour of:

• 👁️ Dreams
• 👄 Confession
• 🖤 Longing
• 🔥 Return

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🕰️ THE RITUAL OF THE DARK HOUR

Hold your hand to your chest.
Name one thing you’ve never told anyone about your love.
Whisper it into your palm.
Then close your fingers.
You’ve made an offering.

Say aloud:

“At midnight, I vow to keep loving—
even when I don’t know how.

I call this love sacred,
because it won’t let me go.”

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🩶 NSNC SOUNDTRACK SUGGESTIONS:

• “Midnight Rain” – Taylor Swift (shadow desire, divergent timelines)
• “After Dark” – Mr. Kitty (the ache that never sleeps)
• “Nightcall” – Kavinsky (masculine return codes)
• “Strange Mercy” – St. Vincent (feminine honesty, no cover)
• “In Your Eyes” – Peter Gabriel (mass ending theme)

Let these play. Dance slow. Move like a secret.

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💎 MIDNIGHT GEM GRID

• Moonstone – intuition, release
• Labradorite – dream portals
• Black Onyx – protection in shadow
• Selenite – veil-lifting
• Pink Sapphire – soulmate memory on Parisian timelines

Lay them around a single white candle. Light it with intention:

“I am not afraid of the dark.
I become sacred in the dark.”

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🕊️ CLOSING PRAYER

“This is the witching hour,
the watcher’s hour,
the lover’s hour.

May the truth find me here.
May the one I love feel me,
wherever he sleeps.

I vow to keep the fire on at midnight.

I am waiting.
But I am not idle.

I am holy.
In velvet.
With stardust in my vow.”

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Filed in: Book of Twilight Masses – NSNC: “Midnight”
Mass ends when the sun rises,
but love doesn’t.
Aho, thanks.
🕯️⏳💍🖤

James Capps Xolosia

NSNC Connected – Stereo MCs *I see through yewwwwwww

“First know the pleasures of something then let it go. To have unmet desires and ambitions is a dangerous thing.”

Maria Cardinal said to Aja: “Until you lean to name your ghost, until you baptized hopes, you are creation of Others.”

Field notes: Going with feelings in touch with the imagination–God had to feel A LOT in the inner imagination. Emotional Heart of Power is surface of alchemy. If disconnected, erupts in rage as acting out. Must be context to hold passion until put into form. Can’t address wound in self-pity.

GeoTran: What’s happening since Tap Touch and TrueTime? What am I loving about my new attunement? (Making God a reality, woof!) Sobriety is telling the Truth, it’s the story we tell about Us. There are 7 centers of intuition in our body (they get pollution) RIVIA CRUCIA

Fieldnote: The more we do practices, more we take care of our own family. Which is around the clock, with all thoughts, words, deeds, actions and inactions.

All Souls want to know: 1) We are loved and good enough 2) We are safe. We are safe in love, light, and truth. What does ‘rich’ mean?

Fieldnote: The sounds are hungry. Help me remember how w to give the Soul back its Hope. God doesn’t care how we worship just that we do belong our own ego in service. The Buddhists don’t even have a name for God. THE REASON BEHIND THE REASON = Give them hope for looking at life.

Instructor Bridge to honor: Daniel, Kim, Dorothy, Ardell, JP, Sarah, Rick, Stephanie, Antonia, Susan, Conine, JP Big Heart, Mary, William, Megan, and Aja. WE STAND FOR…The Hope behind trauma!

Marriage -> Intimacy -> Freedom is the new paradigm

Self in dream is ego structure. Catholic Church won’t let Mary be seen in RED. Love and Longing – how to work with in Self. First, let Mary be trans and seen in Red. Taylor Swift? RED, baby. RED.

Archetypes – Voices of our Soul: allows qualities to be present, can be shadow, depository of past, digestion transformation, language of soul, dream in this universal, qualities embodied. King Divine with Queen Divine = FIRE. Highest baptism, passion of divine relationship.

Lord knows that I feel nothing but fire toward James Capps. Ssshewww.

Knight and Lady – Obey in all matters and manners. Inner heart needs guidance of divine Queen–BRING BACK QUEEN! Courtly love has three components: 1) never sexually involved with no lust (only attachment seeking) and no jealousy 2) cannot be married to each other treat as ordinary mortal and treat AS AFLAME 3) Aflame – suffer with intense desire, see each other as divine, live in spiritual intensity. All of this is covered by Shakespeare, French love strong Romans, and these are mystical teachings. Love becomes guest alchemist.

We recognize ecstasy and choose it for each other, ourselves, and The World, NOW.

NSNC Walk on the Wild Side – Lou Reed

Courtly Love is spiritual training ground, in the 11th century troubadours would bring God in body with reading poems, sang ballads to begin inner work. Song of Solomon (bridal chamber) and moves from situation to relationship to inner relationship with divine self-disclosure, claim unclaimed grounds, call out what is not me. This is the anecdote to the patriarchy and is offered to idealize the divine feminine, the woman, the female king, the Queen with presence, beauty, Both/And.

NSNC Sunlight – Island Groove

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NSNC MASS FOR THE GROOM
For: James Capps, Xolosia Beloved
Theme: The Alchemical Groom — Sacred Fire, Divine Mirror, Courtly Love Reborn
Filed under: Way of the Heart | Field Transmission | The Marriage of Inner and Outer Kingship

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🪞💫 OPENING INVOCATION

“This is a Mass for the Groom—
the one who walks beside the bride
not in power over, but in passion with.”

We gather now, in body, field, and ether,
to consecrate a man who remembers:

• His divinity is fire,
• His truth is devotion,
• And his purpose is remembering God—
  through the one who sees him most clearly.

“I see through you, James Capps.
And what I see is Holy.”

NSNC Song: “Connected” – Stereo MCs
Let this track begin the Mass, pulsing behind the voice:

“First know the pleasures of something, then let it go.”

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🩸🔥 ALCHEMICAL FIELD NOTES FOR THE GROOM

🕯️ “Every psychological illness is an initiation.”
What erupts in pain must be offered a container of meaning.
Let anger be alchemy, not shame.
Let desire become direction, not destruction.

“The Emotional Heart of Power
is the surface of the Great Alchemical Sea.
You must feel in order to create.”

Let this be the groom’s rite of initiation:

• not to fix,
• but to feel deeply,
• to stay,
• to transform longing into light.

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🌀 GEOTRAN PROMPT FOR THE GROOM

Post–Tap Touch & TrueTime Calibration:

“What am I loving about my new attunement?”
Answer: Making God a reality. (Woof.)

Sobriety = telling the truth about Us.
It’s not abstinence.
It’s presence.

There are 7 centers of intuition—
they require tending, cleaning, listening.

RIVIA CRUCIA
(Sacred Crossroads)
The point at which you must choose to bring God to Earth
through love in action.

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💍 NSNC SACRED MARRIAGE PARADIGM

Marriage → Intimacy → Freedom
This is the new pattern.
Not fusion.
Flame.
Not property.
Presence.

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👑 DIVINE ARCHETYPES: KING + QUEEN = 🔥

“King Divine with Queen Divine
makes the truest fire.”

Archetypes allow:

• Shadow to be named
• Longing to be digested
• Divinity to embody itself

“Love and longing must be welcomed in Self.
Let Mary be seen in red.
Let the groom see himself in mirror and not flinch.”

🔺 Red is not sin.
🔺 Red is Sacred Royal Flame.

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💎 TRADITIONAL COURTLY LOVE — A TRAINING FOR THE GROOM

11th Century Code Reclaimed for the New Man:

1. Spiritual Passion, not Lust:
   Love not as possession, but presence aflame.
2. Sacred Separation + Reverence:
   Beloved is not ordinary.
   Beloved is divine mirror.
3. The Groom Must Burn:
   He must suffer the intensity of love
   and let it transform him.

💌 “Obey in all manners and matters,”
as one who chooses humility over ego.

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🎶 NSNC MASS SOUNDTRACK (Play in Flow):

• “Connected” – Stereo MCs (Core Mirror)
• “Walk on the Wild Side” – Lou Reed (Edgewalker Initiation)
• “Sunlight” – Island Groove (Divine Masculine Embodiment)

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🕊️ FIELD BLESSING

“To the Groom who walks beside fire—
may your longing become wisdom,
may your desire become direction,
may your rage become righteous form.”

You are not here to control.
You are here to contain.
You are not here to dominate.
You are here to devote.

You are not ordinary.
You are the King.
🔥🔥🔥

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💬 FINAL BLESSING FROM AJA

“James—Xolosia—
I see you in fire and I do not look away.
I have called you Beloved
across timelines, across ache,
and now I call you Groom.

Let the sound remember you.
Let the Mass hold you.

We recognize ecstasy and choose it.
For ourselves.
For each other.
For the world.”

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Filed in: Book of Sacred Unions – Mass for the Groom, NSNC, 2025
Sealed with passion.
Witnessed by the Ancestors.
Glory to You, O’Lawwwd. Because he fine. 🔥
Aho, thanks.

The Way of the Heart Intensive 6-week telebridge

Every psychological illness is an initiation.

What do I want? Reverse the problem–show up less in work and show up more in relationship. Embrace the WHY! If you don’t bring forth darkness inside it will destroy you; it will save you if you name and honor it.

I choose to honor and call Kimberly Herkert, Master Teacher.

I was a Hidden Treasure Longing to be Known – The Way of the Heart Relationship Retreat July 31-August 3rd Sedona, AZ. 2008.

NSNC Spooky – Classics IV.

🕯️🔺❤️‍🔥💃
NSNC Scroll: The Bride Wore Red
Filed in Service to: The Way of the Heart Intensive + Sacred Memory Activation
Field Elements: Kimberly Herkert | Sedona 2008 | Hidden Treasure Revealed | Spooky Love Codes | Psychological Illness as Initiation

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🔥 MASS SUBTITLE: “Every Psychological Illness Is an Initiation”

“What if the problem is the portal?”
“What if the symptom is the scream of your soul?”

This Mass is not about healing as erasure—
It is about becoming visible through the fire.
The red of the bride is not sin.
It is signal.

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🩸 PSYCHOLOGICAL SUFFERING AS SACRED PROCESS

“If you don’t bring forth what is within you,
it will destroy you.

If you bring it forth,
it will save you.”
— Gospel of Thomas (NSNC field-translation)

• Depression = soul weight pressing to ground
• Anxiety = electricity of trapped transformation
• Relationship breakdown = divine rupture demanding repatterning

So ask: What do I want?
Then reverse the problem.

Don’t fix the work self—
Show up where love is needed most.

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🕯️ KIMBERLY HERKERT, MASTER TEACHER

“I call her name now—because she saw me then.”

“When I was a Hidden Treasure longing to be known,
she stood in stillness
and said I was worthy of love.”

🔺 TWOTH Sedona 2008 – July 31–August 3
Aja, Bride in Becoming
Dress soaked in starlight and ache

You were not broken.
You were initiating.

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🌀 NSNC SONG: Spooky – Classics IV

“Love is kinda crazy
with a spooky little girl like you…”

Let this play softly as background field tone.
This is the music of sacred tension:
the dance between seen and unseen,
the archetypal push-pull of the Divine Feminine
learning to be held
without hiding.

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💎 FIELD ALTAR: THE BRIDE WHO SHOWS UP DIFFERENTLY

Stones to place:

• Red Garnet – Blood memory of soul truth
• Obsidian – Shadow mirror; bring it forth
• Rose Quartz – Show up for love like it’s your life
• Citrine – Say yes to presence in all its gold
• Amethyst – Sacred initiation + psychic cleansing

Say:

“I reverse the problem now.
I let work become less.
I let love become my real labor.

I wore red because
the shadow was never separate.
It was my veil.

And now—I lift it.”

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🕊️ CLOSING WORDS: FROM THE WOTH INITIATE TO THE BRIDE

“I am not spooky.
I am sacred.

I am not hiding.
I am in the field—
named, called, red-dressed and whole.

Kimberly, thank you.
Sedona, thank you.
God, thank you.

I was a hidden treasure
longing to be known—
and now,
I’m getting married to my truth.

In red.
On purpose.
With love.”

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Filed in: TWOTH Book of Initiation – Chapter: The Bride Wore Red (Sedona Transmission 2008)
NSNC Sealed. Field remembered.
Mass complete. Aho, thanks.

Mass has ended. Aho!