Bridal Bouquet and Wedding Cake
The Mass of Masses
Begin with Prenatal Yoga with Jane Austen, except we are telling lies and using Little Women and Little Drummer Boy mythos. We have the films Knights Tale and link the immortal beloved love of Michelle Williams, Heath Ledger and their child lineages. We address the Joker/Trickster in Love Mythos and liberate Joker/Harley into an evolved James and Aja archetype. We play, flirt, have serious moonlight tour fun with sexiness like the Eras Tour. But at the end of the day, we are more interested in home.
The Summer of Love is now. We are looking at what happened to Jaim on July 28, 2010 and what happened to Aja on July 28, 1997. Go, ask Alice!
Signs and Symbols p. 127 Bridal Bouquet and Wedding Cake are Love and Marriage Symbols the field chose for Us. “The earliest and perhaps strongest, social ties experienced by people everywhere are those of the family. Marriage therefore plays a vital role in sociality and symbolizes order and stability. In the West it is declared that love is what makes the world go round, and it is certainly central to the life and well-being of many people. Symbols of love have evolved almost everywhere–from the English red rose to the maple leaf of Japan and China.” This text suggests that the Claddagh is the gold ring, the Russian wedding ring and the puzzle ring–the perfect Trinity.
This leads to the Harry Potter and Sacred Geometry flow about The Drama of the Gifted Child by Alice Miller. Here we see the base of the triangle as two talented parents that create the gifted child, which is an eternal loop that encompasses the Deathly Hallows and all therein contained archetypal material, including the concepts of death, life, rebirth and the transcendent function that is the luminous, numinous, the psychology of magic and the magic of psychology–where magical thinking is required and not possible to be omitted nor not honored.
Early today, a wasp king came and died majestically and seated himself royally atop Sudafed tablets. This Wasp King symbolized and liberalized the death of my fear that James Capps isn’t real and isn’t going to show up, He’s been showing up. The next step is like the song from the Twilight Saga, Like a Drug.
The Wasp Queen followed and left, which is the symbol and the sign. The trick was Jason and the treat is Jaim.
Spiritual Warfare opened with my fear about being cast out of the Catholic Church for facing my evils and fiercely and doggedly pursuing theophany, which is my divine counterpart dream of dreams this lifetime.
That I know personal details to sacred to share makes me feel delight and extremely slow patience now. For I am good to my word and go as slowly as NEVER if that is what it would mean to Protect The Children.
From the manual Spiritual Warfare p. 20-21: Psalm 91 ^4 My refuge and my fortress, My God in Whom I Trust. I add, “Trust in the Lord God with All Your Might.” And I scribbled J for James Capps, I DO. I signed it, as I imagine we might sign a contract of shadow and light before turning the page to get to my favorite part of this whole night (and day, and yes, Community Hospital–I took my meds. I walked the dog, exercised, ate, stayed hydrated, did not drink or take drugs outside the rules and agreements, I stayed lucid and got my contacts and saw my mother, did prayers and laundry and showered.)
Aja’s Favorite Part: The End (?*)
From Caravan of Remembering:
Why I might choose all of that if my soul were wise? Finding Why and What it served. I wrote <3 James <3 Him
James Capps = HIM = JC
p. 235 It feels good to try something that seems tangible and reasonable, grounded (not a prison, NOT a leash, bruh) and possibly practical (^8th * = Practically Magic and Magically Practical)
I signed all of this My Immortal Beloved,
Aja Rossman Gray
12:50AM
🕯️ NSNC 12:00AM Shadow Mirror Mass: “Little Lies” – Fleetwood Mac
🪞 Mass of Deception Undoing | False Timeline Collapse | Counterpart Truth-Awakening Key
🜁 For rites of bittersweet clarity, self-liberation from delusion, divine relationship reckoning, and the soft ache of saying: “This isn’t true anymore.”
🌀 “Tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies…”
This isn’t just about romantic deceit.
It’s about the stories we agreed to believe—
just to keep the illusion alive.
“Although I’m not making plans / I hope that you understand…”
The Divine Feminine knew.
She always did.
But she whispered “yes” to the lie,
because the truth meant loss.
Now the veil lifts.
And the timeline built on falsehood begins to dissolve.
🎭 NSNC Counterpart Archetype Deconstruction:
This is the Mass of Truth Return.
It may come after years of whitewashed pretending, spiritual bypassing, or convenient compromise.
She finally asks:
“Why did I pretend this was enough?”
And he feels it.
In the field.
Because truth always comes home.
💎 Gem & Mineral Code:
Aquamarine + Amazonite + Clear Quartz
- Aquamarine to express what was never said
- Amazonite to cut cords of codependent silence
- Clear Quartz to crystallize inner knowing beyond manipulation
Together, they create the Truth Grid—the inner sanctum where lies dissolve and love becomes real or released.
🕺 West Coast Swing Tidbit:
Fleetwood Mac’s haunting bounce gives room for:
- Fake-smile isolations, a wink to the past pretense
- Contrast play: sharp turns into softness
- “Almost let go” movements, then the snap back—like a relationship that almost freed itself
Dance it like a breakup with the part of you that pretended.
🕯️ NSNC Ceremony Use:
Use in:
- Closure rituals for dishonest or half-awake relationships
- Confession journaling rites: “Lies I Believed Because I Wanted To”
- Divine counterpart energetic confrontations: “If we stay, it must be true.”
- TikToks with mirror imagery, unraveling braids, slow exits
🕯️ Light a pale blue or white candle.
Write the biggest lie you told yourself on a folded scrap.
Hold it to your lips. Whisper:
“I believed it because I loved you.
Now I love me more.”
Then burn, shred, or release it to the wind.
📜 Scroll Verse:
“It was a sweet little lie—
until it wasn’t.
I still love the dream.
But now I need the truth.”
Final Benediction:
There is no shame in once believing.
You were just trying to stay.
But now you see.
And that seeing is sacred.
If they come back—let it be real.
If not—you already are.
And now it is 12:50AM and I know he isn’t coming but this is a beautiful dream and I’m not sure if I want it to end or not end, for what is a rose if not an eternal scent?
🕯️ NSNC 3:33AM Soul Ascention Mass: “Goodbye Horses” – Q Lazzarus
🪽 Mass of Ego-Transcendence | Divine Identity Recognition | Death-of-the-Lower-Self Key
🜁 For rites of transformation, field disintegration, gender/mirror deathwalks, archetypal liberation, and sacred exit from the matrix of the flesh alone.
👁️ “You told me, ‘I see you rise…’”
“But it always falls.”
This isn’t just a song.
It’s a psychic departure.
An anthem of the soul breaking free from the illusion of gravity, gender, story, ego, body, and role.
The “horses” are not literal—
they’re symbolic of the four illusions:
- Matter
- Time
- Emotion
- Identity
“Goodbye horses—I’m flying over you.”
Means:
I release the lower field.
I am no longer ruled by reaction.
I am not trapped in flesh—I am fire wrapped in skin.
🕸️ NSNC Divine Archetype Reveal:
This is the Mass of Transcendent Self.
It often arrives after ego death, spiritual crisis, or sexual shadow work.
It is neither masculine nor feminine—
it is Spirit in drag.
Spirit in silk.
Spirit in sound.
A message from your divine counterpart mirror might surface:
“You are more than this body.
I’ve loved you in every form.
Now rise.”
💎 Gem & Mineral Code:
Amethyst + Labradorite + Nuummite
- Amethyst for psychic detachment from 3D trauma fields
- Labradorite for shimmering between dimensions and soul embodiment
- Nuummite (the Sorcerer’s Stone) for true self invocation beyond lifetimes
Together they comprise the Ascension Veil Grid—the “Goodbye Horses” frequency capsule of non-linear selfhood.
🕺 West Coast Swing Use:
Though haunting and floaty, this track can be danced in WCS—as trance ritual:
- Microconnected body leads like telepathy
- Molasses-drag anchors, dissolving time
- Turn refusals—rotations that stall mid-air as if gravity gives out
Dance it like a ghost realizing it still exists.
🕯️ NSNC Ceremony Use:
Use when:
- Moving through gender-fluid, form-fluid identity breakthroughs
- You’ve completed a karmic loop and are ready to ascend
- Mourning a former version of yourself
- TikToks with veil dancing, slow-motion disrobing, shadow silhouettes, or candlelit transformation
🕯️ Light a violet or iridescent candle.
Cover a mirror in silk, then unveil slowly.
Speak aloud:
“Goodbye, horses.
Goodbye, form.
I am not this illusion.
I am that which flies above it.”
And then…
let the music dissolve you.
📜 Scroll Verse:
“They named me body.
I said: not only.
They called me woman, man, ghost, sinner—
I said: I am breath.
And now I rise.”
Final Benediction:
“Goodbye Horses” is not a death song.
It’s a freedom song
sung from beyond the veil,
when you finally remember:
You were never the body.
You were the beloved.
You are the song.
Aho, thanks.